uncertain future ahead..... CAUTION ;)

[The Spyder]

Well..... got a call from Cali today from the college my dad got a job offer from....... hes being flown back down ASAP (3wks... LOL) theres 2 canidates left....... hes the stronger of the 2 but we dont think they can afford us ~ but from what i know~ there willing to pay........ so....... might be moving.........

I have no idea what im doing in school right now....... math is sucking horribly, was never a strong pt anyways, but my teacher SUCKS....... hes horrid.... i can go to ANY other PERSON and learn it better from them then he can try to teach me....... I dont know where i will be graduating from........ here or at a public school in cali.......

For friends, im realy pissed at one, who does not get it that i have had it with him and 1 other person he's friends with........ (out of 8 including myself, 5 are good friends.)

For any love life.......... yeah right......... like i have one........ for my "friend" stephi~ its weird...... cause she has a "official" boyfriend, but im her unofficial one at school and everywhere he isnt........ hes a nice guy, we get along together well! Havent told him im the other 1/2 of the relationship. Steph is great~ mainly cause i dont want her to know some of my past, and she dosent want me to know some of hers. (some i do know, but i don care, the past is the past, and aslong as it doesnt affect our relationship its fine...) Shes just so nice, and fun to be with, one of the FEW girls ive ever realy liked and shes taken......... but whatever............It was her B-day yesterday~ im 2yrs older then she is! But we get along really well~ i think she enjoyed everyones gifts....... most of which i cant say on this board......... ~ enougth about that!

For me........ im just general out of it......... trying to get family stuff dealt with, grandpas back in the hospital with a relapse of cancer, dont know if he'll make it. Im to the poing where i dont know who i am or ever will be, but that much can be expected~

Ill be around, just kinda slow and out of it~

L8R~

The SPyder~

[ByteWipe]

Originally posted by The Spyder
For any love life.......... yeah right......... like i have one........ for my "friend" stephi~ its weird...... cause she has a "official" boyfriend, but im her unofficial one at school and everywhere he isnt........ hes a nice guy, we get along together well! Havent told him im the other 1/2 of the relationship. Steph is great~ mainly cause i dont want her to know some of my past, and she dosent want me to know some of hers. (some i do know, but i don care, the past is the past, and aslong as it doesnt affect our relationship its fine...) Shes just so nice, and fun to be with, one of the FEW girls ive ever realy liked and shes taken.........

Know the feeling, just gotta hang on in there bud! Things will, do and probably are going to get better. You have to treat life like a cold sometimes, you cant cure it, just gotta ride it out.

And that goes for the rest of your problems too! Sorry to hear things aren't going 100% fantastically well, but I'm sure things will iron themselves out sooner or later

[dimmreaper]

Originally posted by The Spyder
Im to the poing where i dont know who i am or ever will be

That’s not really a bad thing! Think of it as an opportunity to invent yourself! First figure out who you want to be. Then determine what steps must be taken to become that person, break those steps down in to a series of smaller goals. Then you need to prioritize those small goals, and proceed one small step at a time, being sure to pat yourself on the back as you go along. It really sounds easy when I say it that way, doesn't it? Seems like the only sensable way to approach life to me.

[Holst]

First figure out who you want to be.

ROFL dimm, 8 words and I cant get any further, let alone working out steps.

I just take each day at a time and keep on going, lifes not turned out so bad thus far... although im a great belever in self justification.

[Daniel ~]

"I don't know anyone who can get through the day without at lest one good rationalization!"

(Lenny Bruce)

Get tough, stay strong, open your heart to the world and never look back in anger.The past has destroyed far more people than the present or the future. Accept that growth is not a choice, it's a duty!

The great thing about being a never was is mocking the has been's LOL

[dimmreaper]

Originally posted by Holst
ROFL dimm, 8 words and I cant get any further, let alone working out steps.

I know the feeling. I'm good for getting snagged up by the futility of my own existence. Its like no matter what I do, I'm going to die and anything I work to achieve will fade away. Seems to me the best a man can hope for is to make the lives of the folks around him a little happier, to have a fulfilling occupation, and to have a few tinker toys to help pass whatever spare time he has. That's who I spend my days trying to become, in that order of priority.

[loop]

I dont think dan can get through one day without quoting someone - loop
lol, sorry dan.
Dont worry spyder, seriously, mym mum use to say
"you live then you die, so why worry". or as the british army use to say
"you are either on the front line or not, if youre not on the front line dont worry, if youre on the front line you are either going over the top or youre not, if youre not dont worry, if youre going over the top youve either been shot or you havnt, if you havnt dont worry, if you have you are dieing or you arent, if your arent then dont worry, if you are dieing then you will either be rescued by medics or you will die, in either case dont worry"

[Spode]

Originally posted by loop
I dont think dan can get through one day without quoting someone - loop
lol, sorry dan.
Dont worry spyder, seriously, mym mum use to say
"you live then you die, so why worry". or as the british army use to say
"you are either on the front line or not, if youre not on the front line dont worry, if youre on the front line you are either going over the top or youre not, if youre not dont worry, if youre going over the top youve either been shot or you havnt, if you havnt dont worry, if you have you are dieing or you arent, if your arent then dont worry, if you are dieing then you will either be rescued by medics or you will die, in either case dont worry"

haha! thats too funny.

[Allan]

Hang in there buddy...

[The Spyder]

another wrench in the gears of things..... er BF dumped steph...... and i dont know wtf to do...... he was a nice guy..... this isnt like him...... i knwo one thing, im not dating her for a good long time~ in the past she (and i) have been suicidial, and i just want to keep her safe! Last thing i said to her was I love you and im always here for you!

[Daniel ~]

"The heart is a lonely hunter"